I had a Panic attack and how I saved myself.
Last night was scary. My heartbeat was erratic and I could feel it throughout my body. I couldn't breathe, couldn’t bring my heart rate down, my chest and left arm started aching and I felt like dying like it was finally ending. Life has been hard these past few months and I have been stretched even beyond my limit. Everyone around me keeps saying that they don’t know how I’m coping with such a situation because they for sure couldn’t. And all I could say was, “Really?”
But now my body finally gave out and I have not only mental but physical proof as well and I deny to continue to live like this. I forbid myself to not prioritize myself. I forbid myself to quit so soon. I forbid myself to not smile anymore And I FORBID MYSELF to GIVE UP.
BECAUSE I MATTER.
Now coming back to the experience last night and how I helped myself. After realizing that it for sure is a panic attack and a possibility of a heart attack, I remembered one thing. Just BREATHE. Long open-mouth breaths. INHALE 1..2..3..4 and EXHALE 1..2..3..4..5..6. Again, INHALE 1..2..3..4 and EXHALE 1..2..3..4..5..6 and again and again and ONE MORE TIME. Slowly and steadily.
Sometimes, we forget and underestimate such essential and basic survival instincts.
So Just BREATHE. INHALE 1..2..3..4 and EXHALE 1..2..3..4..5..6. Again, INHALE 1..2..3..4 and EXHALE 1..2..3..4..5..6 and again.
ONE MORE TIME.
Please know, you are not alone. You have yourself and it’s worth living for just that <3.